"I want you to be better"

Is this going to work? Is it too early? I'm in that phase again where I tend to overthink and overanalyze every single detail that floats around. Everything. Did he hit a flush? Straight? Am I even capable of doing this? These thoughts swim around in my mind and it's bothering me. I'm thinking way TOO much. It's not beneficial because the more and more I think about it, more questions arise. Will I fail? Is it even worthwhile? My head will probably explode soon, and I'd still have no answers to any of these questions. The only answer I'd have is that my head obviously couldn't handle any/all of the questions, ha.

The future is scary as hell, man, scary as hell. I always come to the same conclusion and patience plays an integral role in all of this. What I realize time after time is that you have to just live in the moments that life gives you. Just live life to the fullest. "I'm not going to be better than you. I'm going to be better than me. Just wait and see, it's only a matter of time."

It's not a big deal, is it?

Note: This is fairly old, but I decided to post it now, ha.

Why do you care what other people do? You shouldn't be bothered by their issues, it's none of your business. So, you want me to stop caring about others? I know it isn't my business, but they're my friends and it affects me. Grow some thicker skin or turn a blind eye. I do have thick skin, but my armor can only endure so many attacks. I don't want to ignore what's going on, but it's taking its toll on me. I don't want to waver, but one can only bide for a certain amount of time. See, I'm breaking you down bit by bit, you're about to fall off the cliff to your inevitable demise. No, I'm not, I will not succumb to the pressure, but I don't know what to do. Have any ideas? Hah! Advice from me? I think not. If you don't know what to do, why do you continue? Why do you keep on fighting? Leave them alone! People shouldn't say bad things about people, and if they do, it should be face-to-face. Then, and only then will the relationship be "real." It'll be exposed as a non-relationship or the two parties will try to make an effort to form something real. Fake friendships are just as bad as being enemies. You're pretending to be someone you're not, and that is the definition of being fake. I'm sorry, did you have anything to ask or say? Uhm, nope, nothing to add, but you should take a look at your armor. Other note: I could not find a picture, so this one should suffice. It offsets the mood anyways.

'Twas a great day..

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